Okay, so some things have happened… we have been away for 3 days now, and have spent another day at home together. We did have our moments of arguments, mostly because of my brain fucks. But he has handled things pretty well, and has always spoken up to my behaving and other things, and still was giving me a good feeling about everything. He also was very sad to leave today, because he had to do some things for work and we won’t see each other probably for 2 weeks.
I have definitely caught some feelings for him, and I do think he has too, but there is still my insecurity which is always acting up. He does have some issues as well, but he seems to be handling things a lot better than me. I am very afraid about him going away for three and a half months in January, and we have been talking about it a little bit, but it doesn’t help that much. Even today when I had to say goodbye after 4 days together and not seeing him for 2 weeks, it was the hardest thing. So that’s gonna suck when the time comes.
However, our communication is pretty good. Or rather we can figure things out when we realize that we’re not communicating very well.
Also the sex has been improving a whole lot, and he has been saying sorry for not lasting too long, but I don’t really care. It is a very nice feeling to be with him and that’s all that matters. We did not use protection, so we’re just hoping nothing happened (I’ve started with temperature control, so we should be fine). He did say that he would be very very happy to have a baby with me, just not quite yet. And I am completely agreeing with this.
I was a bit scared one time. When he called me his girlfriend on a voice message and asked about it when we were away together and he simply said that it was a slip up, but he was getting very nervous. So I still don’t know what we are right now, haha.
Well…. I don’t really have much else to say, since things are going great, but I am very insecure and waiting for the big boom to happen, but until now, there hasn’t. I did think it might happen when we were abroad together and spending 24/7 with each other, but it hasn’t. So things are looking great. Talk to you later…
Oh and PS: what amazed me most of all. My shy cat was sitting on his lap and she has never done this in 12 years. Never. She only cuddles up to me and I was in shock and he laughed his face off because of how shocked I must have looked.