I’m not home much anymore and therefore don’t have my laptop to update the blog. Plus I’m not the biggest fan of typing up a lengthy post on my phone… But here we are, because I gotta update you guys.
Today is our 2 months anniversary. I really don’t know where the time has gone, but it feels good. Usually around that time, first insecurities and thoughts come up. I would lie if I’d say there never have been any. But nowhere to thinking about ending things – like I usually do.
He woke me up this morning to say goodbye before he left the house and said “happy 2 months babe, I like you”. Which made me so happy and I am really no morning person.
We’ve had one or two fights about little things. But we can talk things through, which is new to me. For example I went home the night before yesterday. When I told him I would not stay the night, he got really distant and wanted me to leave for work earlier than usual. I just hugged him, because it hurt – he just kissed me quickly and wanted to walk away. I then hugged him close and he asked what was wrong. I said he was being distant, which he denied. I then left for work, really sad. I texted him several times that I liked him and got nothing back that day. When I then ignored him at work the enxt day, he got super upset again. When we talked about it last night, he said that he thought I didn’t want to see him. At first he complained about not being distant, but with the right questions he then admitted that he was. It’s easier because we can read each other very well. Even if words are unspoken. And we just explained our feelings and everything was well again.
Anyway. Last weekend we spent a few days in Austria with his best friend, his best friend’s girlfriend and his goddaughter. I was pretty shy, due to them speaking another language (which I understand perfectly and can speak, but I hate my dialect). So I wasn’t sure whether they liked me the least, but his best friend texted him the day we left, and said he liked me. Which was such a relief for me. Now it’s just his mom left, I gotta get a good impression.
We also got a really nice picture with his goddaughter and we look like a real family. I keep looking at the picture, because it’s so cute and I really see us there in a few years. His best friend also said at one point “no way it’s gonna take another 2 years until you have a baby”. We don’t plan them until then, because I have uni again for 2 years. But I just said to my friend, what’s gonna happen, is gonna happen. We don’t plan on it, but guess both wouldn’t be sad if it happened either way.
So yes, still going strong.