So I was in a “oh fuck everything”-mood yesterday so I messaged Steve about his behaviour. I said that he should message me as soon as he has a reason why he’s not talking to me. He messaged me pretty soon after: “sorry, I know it’s not fair.. I just don’t know what I want and what I don’t want. I know that right now, I can’t take care of a girl because I’m always travelling. I’m not made to stay at one place“. Well.. there’s no news right? I always knew that he likes to travel, but seriously? Taking this as a reason why not to date… after 2 months? Nope, you can go and fuck yourself dude. I am not going to be told by a 27 yo that he can’t date because he wants to travel. After several months of asking to see each other every other day, now talking about not having enough time. Seriously?!?!?!…
I then replied “oh well.. you can’t just tell me when I’m asking you a billion times what is wrong. Nope, better just not talk to her, because that’s the fair and very adult way to behave.. right”. His response? “I never said I’m fair or an adult… but yes, somehow that’s my way”. OH WELL BOY, THE LAST TIME SOMEONE DID THIS EXACT SAME THING IT WAS A BOY. A 18 YEAR OLD BOY WHO HAS NO IDEA OF LIFE. What the hell dude. Seriously. I’m so furious. Not because I’m hurt. Well yes I kind of am. But not in a “I’m still in love with him”-way, because that is long gone because of Dino. I’m just so super disappointed in him, that’s all.
I really thought he’s different. But oh well, seems like he’s not.
Anyhow, he messaged me again today saying that he wanted to tell me more, but he couldn’t because I deleted him off facebook. There’s not like a billion other ways to deal with it, nope. So I’m curious about what he has to tell me.