It’s funny how something can drag along for forever (well 4 months) and then all of a sudden everything changes at once. As I’ve mentioned in my last post, my boyfriend Scott has finally decided to come along with me to the new city. Which means moving in together, building up a new life together – since we both don’t know anybody there. He’s actively looking for jobs and finally in a field that I see him in.
He has been super grateful as of late, because I sticked around. Just yesterday when I was talking to a friend about this, she said “I was afraid you would leave him, if he would have not changed his mind”. Which surprised me, because it never came to my mind to leave him because of this. Of course it was annoying and very time- and power consuming, but that didn’t change the fact that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him and I don’t see myself without him again. Even though he does annoy me a lot, I still value what he gives me.
So a few days ago we went out with a friend, who then brought up the topic of marrying. This has not been a new topic to our relationship. We’ve talked about it pretty much from the beginning and agreed on him proposing at the end of my studies (which means the end of 2020). She then asked him why he didn’t propose yet (bear in mind we have only been together 7 months by now) when he knows I’m the one. To which he of course didn’t have an answer. I just laughed, because it was funny to me, for her to be so big on this.
Anyway, when we were back home he asked me whether I really wanted him to propose and I said no. I reminded him of what we had spoken of long before and he just said “but what if I want to?”… to which I told him he had let me know, he didn’t want to be engaged for longer than a year. And then he said “but I just want to call you my fiancee”.
This caught me off surprise. It’s very cute, but I’m not sure why he’s so eager on it now. I knew beforehand that he was playing with these thoughts and that’s why I made him promise me, he would not propose on our first holidays (in September). But I’m not sure how much longer he can hold off.
And I don’t know why I’m making myself think about it, because I know the answer I would give him. And he knows as well, so it would all be fine. I guess it’s just that community doesn’t understand how fast one can get married and be sure about someone.
Oh well, we’ll see 🙂