boys will be boys!

Last night I was lying in bed and wanted to make a post. But I was too tired to type it up on my phone, so here we are. I wish I had typed it up yesterday though, because I feel weird about it now.

But here’s the story: Phil is a guy I know from work. He’s not from the same profession, but I do see him almost daily. We’ve always been talking to each other and making fun. I never saw him for more than just that. I have a colleague from university, who lives in the same house as him. That’s how I got to notice him – like really see him. But I always figured she was interested in him, since she told me that they were talking in private as well and playing games and so on. I never did…

Until recently. Somehow we got to talk more at work and I always made fun of him for not saying hi. So he usually stood right in front of me, so I couldn’t ignore him and said hi. Last week I then sent him a friend request on facebook. I didn’t say anything to him, but was hoping to find some more information about him. I didn’t get any, his last picture is from 2008. But he then chatted me up and we talked a little. After a day of chatting over the messenger, I sent him my number because I really hate facebook. Ever since we’ve been chatting daily over the phone. I’ve gotten to know quite a lot of him and have been thinking about him, even when we weren’t chatting. However, at work he’s ignored me. I think it wasn’t on purpose, but it’s just that. Maybe he didn’t notice me.

Now here’s the thing. As every women who reads this knows, we talk about guys. Always. And my best friend started asking me things on my list, to check off. You know, things my exes had and didn’t work out. One of them was smoking. Unfortunately it is the first thing, that he does and I really don’t like. But oh well. So I of course asked him straight away and he got really upset about me not liking it. In the end I told him why I was asking and he got all buffy saying “don’t talk about me!”. I don’t know what is up there, but something must have happened at some point. I’m not gonna press things, but to say I’m a bit off this whole thing… well would be an understatement. Let’s see whether we can work this out.

Plus ever since this chatting thing with Phil happened, I’ve been thinking about Aaden quite a lot, too. I haven’t seen him in a while,… until last Thursday. And that’s been weird as well. I accidentally (really!) called him instead of another doctor and he was like “you gotta tell me something?”. It caught me off guard and I just blabbered something about work. He said “no, something personal”. And I was like: ermm.. no!
When I saw him again that day I asked how he had recognised me, since I didn’t say my name because I was so surprised to hear him on the phone. To which he simply replied: “I didn’t!” and another doctor who was with me said: he talks to everyone like that! That got me a bit off him as well… I don’t know.

single to mingle

It’s been a while again. That’s simply, because life is boring.
Ben hasn’t textet me since August. I have no idea what happened, but I also don’t really care. It would have never worked out and him saying A and meaning B started to annoy me loads. Plus he keeps persisting that he is so happy with his fiancé, when he acts the whole other way. He has recently even deleted my number. I am very curious how things will be, when we bump into each other again.

It’s been over a year now that I’ve been single. Still no Tinder or anything the like, no reason to date when my head is not into it. I have so much to do at work, that most of the time I am happy to not have a boyfriend. I didn’t even meet a guy at holidays, which I usually do. But then also it would be nice to have one again, some time.

What has happened though: When I started on this new unit 1.5 years ago, I was so in love with one of the doctors. Fun story? I’m going to his wedding tomorrow. His girlfriend is in my team now and I love them both so much. So I was so happy when they invited me to the wedding and I am looking forward to it.
My friends are trying to set me up with guys, especially doctors. But the ones I really like are married or taken, so it was never a thing. However a few months back I talked to one of the doctors Aaden. I always liked his personality, but he said to another doctor that he really liked curvy girls. That’s why I then had an eye on him. I didn’t think he would and since I am not the smallest girl, that was nice to hear. I then talked to a friend, who said that he was taken. So he was out again. However in the last week or two, things started to be awkward. We were working together a lot and at some point he had to change units and I asked, whether he could not stay here. He asked whether I would miss him, and I said yes. He said “I will miss you, too!”. He also gives me nicknames, which no one else does. He talked a lot to me, very flirty. But I just kind of talked it off again. Then a few days ago I stood next to him, because I was off to have lunch. He looked at me for the longest time and I asked “you want something from me?” He just smiled. And I said “well, businesswise”. He laughed again and said no. Wouldn’t he have declined if it wasn’t flirty?
Or the other day we were talking about a patient and I was standing close next to him. He looked at me weirdly, so I took a step away, because I figured it was too close for him. To which he then said “you can stay, where you were”. He also keeps touching me on a shoulder or the arm. Just the little things.

But I really don’t know whether it is my hope that he is interested as well, or I’m seeing things, where there is nothing. Gotta wait, I guess.