Each time I type up a post these days, I feel like I haven’t talked to you guys in ages, when in reality it has only been 2.5 weeks. I can’t really say lots has happened, but I felt like updating you nevertheless. I actually wanted to let you know yesterday when something happened, but for the one time in forever I left my notebook at school.
So, I haven’t heard from Gohan since we saw each other those 2.5 weeks ago. I don’t really care, I just found it funny… he said before we said goodbye, that he enjoyed talking to me and will try to keep the contact up. Well, we all see how much truth was in these words, so there’s that.
Then there’s a new guy. I’m not sure yet if he deserves a name on here, but we will find out soon enough. Paraplegic.
Yes, he is exactly that. But let me start from the beginning. A few weeks ago I reactivated my Tinder or rather created a new profile. I talked to a lot of guys – I mean a lot! I didn’t create the profile in the hope of finding anyone, but just being able to talk to someone when I’m bored. So.
On August 12th he texted me a simple small talk text and we got into talking. It wasn’t like I was all over him, but he had sparked my interest, especially when he told me about his accident when he broke a vortex and wasn’t able to walk. As many of you may know, I work as a nurse and therefore have been working with these kind of people every now and then. I was not sure if I could bear having a boyfriend in a wheelchair, but soon enough found out that he was able to walk again.
We texted back an forth and the very next day he asked, if we could switch to texting. Which I obviously was all in (I f*ckin hate the Tinder app!). The texting was on and off, some days he would text me or simply not reply to my questions and so on. It made me lose interest in him, although he seemed pretty perfect on paper (he’s good looking, intelligent, searches for the same things in a relationship, wants a family soonish and so on – only down side: yet another guy I have to drive 1.5 hours to), I wasn’t up for a chase or a stupid game like that.
Pretty much in the beginning (still on Tinder) he asked if I was up for meeting. I said that, yes I was, but needed to get to know someone first before I would. A few days later he said something along the lines of “well you don’t want to date, so…” I explained once more that I hadn’t said no. When I then asked for a date, he simply stated that ‘it’s not that easy to get a date’ with him. Oh well, excuse me King. So I didn’t ask again obviously. He has the habit of simply not reacting to an open question, and I couldn’t be bothered to really care at some point.
At some point last week we talked about seeing each other again. I told him I was free this weekend, to which he said “I thought you had to learn?” which I actually had to, but would have canceled. He simply didn’t reply anymore, so that was off. And I told myself not to bother anymore trying to get him to date me. What’s the point?!
Then happened Monday. I was out with my friends, getting drunk. I hadn’t texted him all day for above reason. When I’m drunk, I text everyone. So I messaged him as well. I had taken my final exams on Monday and he predicted what mark I would get (which was pretty high), and I was like “thought I needed some private lessons with you?” (he’s said so a few days prior). To which he replied, that I could still get them on free terms. I asked him for what topic and he asked where I needed help. I said I would definitely find some topics. Him: “I’m happy about that, else you wouldn’t need me 😉 ” to which I said: I guess you can be used for more things than that. Of course he asked what for and I said “hmm.. discuss, cuddle and having fun?!” (bear in mind, by then I was pretty drunk).
All of a sudden he opened up again and asked if we could see each other during the weeks as well (since he knew I wasn’t available this coming weekend). I really don’t know where this came from, but somehow we have settled for this Thursday evening.
I was very surprised about this. Let me tell you, I’m trying to not get my hopes up, he still has 2 days to cancel OR not turn up at all. But he has been very talkative since, which he hasn’t been before. He also seems a bit flirtatious with me, which is so unusual for him (did tell him so).
I am happy and excited though. The first date in so long (the last real date I remember was with Stan… so that has been a while (2 years or so)). I’ll update you when I know more.
PS: Haven’t heard from Doc in 3 weeks or so