dating a doctor

out of my league

I guess it’s time to update on my current situation, right?

I haven’t heard from Alan. The last time that we talked on his behalf was over 6 weeks ago. As I mentioned, he does answer my texts, but not intending on any conversation or interest in me whatsoever. I have not heard one thing about any of the letters and honestly, I truly have given up about a week ago to ever hear from him again. So far I have gifted the tickets I bought for him to a friend of mine, I have deleted him on instagram a few weeks back. And I deleted his snapchat today. It was the only source of connection anymore that was left. The only way to know what is going on in his life. And I figured it was time to cut this off, too. We’re still friends on facebook, but I unfollowed him a few weeks ago as well – so I need to actively go on his profile to see anything. So that’s gonna be the last step to get him out of my life completely.
I am glad I have met Doc. He made me finally let go of Alan for good. Not that he had any intention to, or that I am hoping to fall in love with Doc. But at least this came out of it: Getting rid of Alan for good.

Now. Doc and I. A whole other story.
As I mentioned he didn’t reply to my drunk text from 3am. Saturday night I texted him again, asking if he was back to normal and asking if he even knew what my name was. This was the start of very long conversations. Turned out he wasn’t as drunk as I thought he was. He knew everything that I told him that evening. Like every detail I ever blabbered about. Which is quite the opposite of Alan. So I knew he was actually listening to me.
I’m not the biggest fan of doctors, so I wasn’t very keen when he told me he was becoming to be one. My opinion has changed completely though. He is so forthcoming and listens to everything I say. He asks about my health (which once more, was just so funny to see the difference between a stranger and Alan. Doc asked so much about my coming operation and stuff). There was a turn in conversation 2 days ago – or so I thought. I felt like he didn’t ask as many questions anymore. Or just seemed annoyed having to talk to me. I guess it was all in my head though. I mean, the texts still don’t fit on one phone screen, so you can imagine how lengthy those are. I told him last night, that he should not feel obliged to text me, even less in that length. That I do find him interesting, but don’t want to interrupt him doing things. To which he replied “that’s nice of you, but I text you because I want to and not because I feel obliged. So don’t worry about that”. I just had that feeling. He’s that kind of guy who’s just being nice to everyone and I don’t want to get my hopes up for nothing. I do think he is not interested romantically, but I just enjoy getting to know him. We’ll see how things are going and where it will lead us.

Also I found out that he’s 3 years younger than me, so that’s a thing. I just don’t think I’m his type of girl. He’s what you could call “out of my league”.


flirty work.

Sorry for the long absence, I was just so worked up with everything going on in my life, everything new going on, that I had no energy left to write a decent lengthy post. Still. I’m sitting here, not too much to talk about.

Before I had my first day at my new workplace on Monday, I was very nervous and anxious. My mom was then joking and saying “well maybe you’ll get yourself a doc now!” This made me chuckle, because the idea of it was so absurd to me. Why would I of all people get a doc as a boyfriend? And what the hell would I do with that one? I mean I’ve seen a couple of Grey’s Anatomy and it just seemed kinda weird. I can’t really explain.

However. Imagine the following. First day at work. Lots and lots of new people. Then, the clumsy I, bumps into a doc. I think he’s around 35 probably, German. First things first: I don’t really like Germans (no offence, I just usually don’t like their personality). Now this sounds a bit too much like Hollywood, right? He straightaway was like “hey I’m Max!” and I just said “yeah hi” and went on. I was busy, so that was that. Fun thing is though, whenever he sees me he smiles like crazy. I don’t care about his reputation (which is not very good to be honest, because he’s such a flirty little head with every girl), I just like the flirting going on. Teasing. Smiling, Flirting. Don’t get me wrong, I will not have anything to do with him, and I don’t think it is his intention either. It’s just nice to have someone pay attention to you. As I told you in my last post, it’s what I was searching for by text and now I have it at work. Every. Day. So that’s that *smirk*
Also the other girls told me how there is actually going on doc-and-nurse-dating-and-making-out-stuff. Like. Really? Yeah. I won’t get myself into this gossip, but it’s still funny.

Also the trying-to-find-someone-to-flirt-with-by-phone was successful in the end as well. I have this old friend – I think I have talked about him on here before actually (Nutsy) – he was always up for a flirt. So I just texted him asking how he was, because we haven’t talked for about 2 years I think. Anyway, he went straight back into the flirting – I didn’t start! It was great though. He’s a very good-looking guy and always tells me how cute he thinks I am, so that’s nice. But he’s on holidays now. Plus I have a feeling that he has a girlfriend, don’t ask me why.
The other guy, who always was waiting for me whilst I was with Momo has now a girlfriend of his own. He texted me the other day and I straight-out asked if he had a girlfriend. He was like “can you read my mind?” and I just told him that he behaved a bit rude and distant, so I figured it out myself. He was sorry, so that’s alright.

Not much more going on though. We’ll see !