Just for some closure about the other guys I’ve already moved to “past dating experiences” – if you haven’t noticed yet:
After I had given P yet another chance to make things up a couple of weeks ago, I haven’t heard from him since that day either. I did not reach out again and I don’t plan to either. I also decided last week that I would not take him to the dinner I had originally invited him to, and I’m not going to tell him that I’m taking Scott either. I asked Scott if he would care to join and he was right ahead “YES”. It was so different to when I asked P that I knew it was the right decision to switch partners. It took me like 3 hours to get a definite answer from P, when I got one within seconds from Scott without even mentioning any details to him. And he right away asked our boss to have a day off that day. In that moment I knew P was past and will stay there. Finally. I deleted all the screenshot from the last year and will eventually get rid of his pictures, too.
Jeremy isn’t that easy to “get rid” of though. I’m not sure how to tell him that things have changed out of the blue. I did not lie to him whilst we were dating, but the insecurity about whether we match, should have been reason enough to let things be. Plus even over the course of these couple of weeks I had been dating him, I never even thought about forgetting P or at least leaving the option open to date him again. I also knew from the moment he didn’t care about my well-being when I was sad, that things wouldn’t work out. So it’s not really out of the blue at all. But with how I guess he is like, he won’t have yet understood where we’re at.
And even though I haven’t seen Jeremy in 3 weeks, he keeps sending me pictures and videos every day. Most of which I don’t even respond to anymore, so I’m not sure how long it’ll take him to get the hint. If he doesn’t, I will have to talk to him eventually. I’m just scared he will turn up at work one day with Scott being there. That would be so awkward. On the other hand, it’s not like I cheated on either one of them. I stopped things with Jeremy before I even realised what was going on with Scott.
So yes. Definitely forgetting about these other guys and concentrating on Scott. I just wanted you guys to know what was going on and why I found the closure I needed after such a long time – at least with P. Hell it took me almost a year!